Why Am I Not Going Underwater?

Wide eyed and wild eyed.  I’m feeling stupid, but just sometimes, because sometimes, I’m crazy, and sometimes, I’m naive, and sometimes I’m half way to dead.   Because all my friends, yeah, they all left, except Chris Reject.  He’s the best. Sometimes I get drunk at night, when one drink turns fast into five, and then I start thinking of how many different ways my driving can take my life.  And I’m all alone when I’m not alone, and what’s worse is I kind of like that.  Relationships don’t burn, they fade out.  So I know I won’t burn, I’ll fade out.  Sometimes I get drunk at night when one drink turns fast into five and most nights I’m too drunk to drive, and then I start thinking of how many different ways my driving can take my life.  And I’m all alone. I’m always thinking: my heart makes me angry, my thoughts make me thirsty, and I have had too much to drink.  I’m not alone.