But I Do

I remember a girl so very well,
The carnival drums, all mad in the air,
Grim reapers and skeletons and a missionary bell,
O, where do we go now but nowhere...

In a colonial hotel we fucked up the sun,
And then we fucked it down again,
Well, the sun comes up and the sun goes down,
Going round and round to nowhere...

The kitten that padded and purred on my lap
Now swipes at my face with the paw of a bear,
I turn the other cheek and you lay into that,
O, where do we go now but nowhere...

O wake up, my love, my lover wake up... (2x)

Across clinical benches with nothing to talk -
Breathing tea and biscuits and the serenity prayer,
While the bones of our child crumble like chalk...
O, where do we go now but nowhere...

I remember a girl so bold and so bright,
Loose-limbed and laughing and brazen and bare,
Sits gnawing her knuckles in the chemical light,
O, where do we go now but nowhere...

You come for me now with a cake that you've made,
Ravaged avenger with a clip in your hair,
Full of glass and bleach and my old razorblades,
O, where do we go now but nowhere...

O wake up, my love, my lover wake up... (2x)

If they'd give me my clothes back then I could go home,
From this fresh, this clean, antiseptic air.
Behind the locked gates an old donkey moans,
O, where do we go now but nowhere...

Around the duck pond we grimly mope,
Gloomily and mournfully we go rounds again,
And one more doomed time and without much hope
Going round and around to nowhere...

From the balcony we watched the carnival band,
The crack of the drum, a little child did scare,
I can still feel his tiny fingers pressed in my hand,
O, where do we go now but nowhere...

If I could relive one day of my life,
If I could relive just a day single one...
You on the balcony, my future wife,
O, who could have known, but no one...

O wake up, my love, my lover make up... (2x)