Sunshine in November

[Verse 1: Sadistik]
Sometimes, I can't handle the cold
Ill break another heart too fragile to hold
Love dies, Im standing alone
Painting false hopes is a habit Ive grown
Come find, why I said I dont love you
And instead I was humbled and content with the struggle
That you gave me, and said that I was crazy
Words grew to chains and love became safety
I saw trust until I lost the view...
And then I lost faith in us like I always do
I refused, to complement your weakness
Through all our ups and downs til I was sea-sick
Flashbacks I remember so well, we both held
In November, when the snow fell
But that changed, you were not a friend to me
I distorted and soon I lost identity
And when we fought it I tried to break the innocence
You said lies, and I became a hypocrite
You tried to hold the sadness when you grabbed tight
(But I moved on from the shadows of our past life)
You said you couldn't live if I ran away
But part of me died, anyway, when I had to stay
In a storm that I saw in groundview
And I couldn't find the I (eye), it was all about you
[Hook]
Year One! I felt the dear sun
A brand new hope before the tears come
Year two! I see In clear view
Ashamed of myself when I am near you
Year three! I watch the stars fade
Im a zombie whos walking through a heartache
Year four! You're forever away and the sun now shines as my memories fade

[Verse 2: Sadistik]
All the feelings I have are hard to word
I can't see the problem, my vision starts to blur
Into an image of a violent struggle
Of a slow suicide since the time I loved you
Id, gladly die if you'd pacify
But you need too many things that I can't provide, so
You looked for it inside another's arms
Lied through ya teeth and cried that nothings wrong
(It didn't stop) all the cryin in public
Or telling me Im not the only guy you were fuckin!
But I gave in to all my fears instead
The only thing that ran more than me (were the tears you shed)
When you told me you cut inside ya flesh
Youre depressed and youd rather die instead
I could feel my heart tear to bits
(The first time Ive cried ever since my parents split)
And I knew, there was no you and I
I kissed you goodbye, it felt like suicide
Ob a bond that was made to sever
When I turned my back on you and wouldn't face the weather
And for a moment, it felt like nothing mattered
Theres givers and theres takers, and you're just the latter
I needed help but I got a struggle
When I fell to pieces you couldn't solve the puzzle
(We wept in puddles) til we were lost at sea
(With regretful struggles) and a faded promise ring