This Time

It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
The flickering of all of my mistakesAnd as the light starts creeping in
I slowly feel the day I'm missing
But I won't even know where to beginDo I push too hard? I fall too fast
A moment never seems to last
Will I stop long enough to know?'Cause everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away this timeThe white circle in my head
It weighs so heavy on my chest
And I'm crushed by your expectationI only want to do some good
Too dumb to know if I could
And I just wanna feel the days I'm inDo I go too far, not far enough
Why can't I keep my big mouth shut
And do you lead the life that we should?And everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away this timeDid I say too much again?
I'm just a girl in a panic
If I tell you my truth, am I getting through?It just seems I should confess
And who am I to pretend?
This is more than I can carryAnd everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt I cry
I hold my head up high
I know I'll be alright this timeI feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away this time
This time, this time
This time, this timeIt's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
And in times like this I see your face