Vaporub

Kept my heart locked away / kept it far away from me

Found a place by the river where nobody goes

Buried far beneath the levee

Places where I used to go / when it rained, my heart went deeper

Deep blue underneath the sea / washed away for no one to see

I dont have the feelings Im supposed to know

I dont get the feeling that you understand

Only get the feeling that youre feeling sorry for me

Thats never been the point of what Ive said

Never really knew what love was / mixed it up with other thoughts

Growing up alone doesnt help one sort it out

Even when youre here, youre not

Never learned to trust another person

Never knew a person who could understand my words

Why I chose to share them, I will never know, but knowing

No one took the time to understand

Do I want forgiveness, or the thrill of maybe knowing

I could change direction, never caring where Im going

Sometimes all the time it takes to make your destination

Isnt charted out as clearly as it seems

Now the smell of vaporub comes over me

All the shame of weakness builds again

Rules and expectations I cant follow any more

I became the person that I am

Wouldnt want to make you think you havent found a way to me

Its only that its not as simple as it seems to be